Totally pissed... I always thought that it was going to be alright... Even when the signs were shouting right at me, warning me of what was about to come. Instead, I chose to turn away telling myself that it's going to be alright...
Now when it had finally happened, wierdly enough, I was not at all surprised... I did feel angry though, about the ugly side of man... Also at myself, for being dumb and lazy enough, to allow this to happen...
Was this what I deserved? Only have myself to blame for this... Now there's more work to be done instead... If only I had not chose to ignore the signs... If only I had not chose to forget about everything...
The past few weeks had been a sweet dream... Now it's back to the nightmare of before... Enough of fun, enough of worrying about useless stuff... The results, the problems... The things and people I have left at the back of my mind... It's time to bring them out again... No more playing, no more monkeying around... Have to be serious once again...
Dammit, I hate this, but what choice do I have... I acted like it was over, and allowed the problems to pile up... Now I have to clear the mess up.. Just hope you guys haven't lost your trust in me...
I promise to clear up everything now.. not to rest until it's really over... So work with me guys... Only celebrating at the final hour...
Pissed at how a big association like S******** S***** C****** (Obvious enough) could just go back on their words just like that... How dumb I was to have trusted them so easily...
PS. I really need ur support now, all ur words of encouragements... All the stuff that used to give me strength to overcome all my problems...
