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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Dumb ass morning... And to think that I felt happy after waking up before my alarm clock at 10am and thinking that I finally changed back from my wierd sleeping hours. Took me a while to realise that I woke up because I was feeling too frustrated over too many things...

WARNING!!! The following complaint contains violence in the form of explicit para-phrasing of language. Please refrain from reading if;
You have a weak heart,

You are over the age of 150,

You are pregnant,

You think you are too holy,

Your parents think you are too holy,

You are a nerd,

You think you are not a nerd, but you are a nerd,

You can't stand four letter words, like bird and bees,

You like fridges,

Your name starts with an A and ends with an N.


Sorry guys, but I'm gonna complain about the school finance system here. I mean, why give a project to students and then tell them that they are not able to complete the project properly because we have to adhere to some crap shit rule about handing in all the financial stuff before the financial year ends. Hey! HELLO!! My event just passed 2 weeks back, and my committee members have their exams you know. We are still students if your teeny-weeny, dumbass, good fer nothing, thrown in a corner to rot, brain can still somehow remember.


And yes!! Pissed at some people for saying one thing, and then turning back and telling you another. Why can't we just bring it over to the next financial year! I mean, hello!! Do we have to slog our asses of, rush from place to place, spend our own money first, just because you are too lazy to do the freakin procedures!!! Then why the fark did you tell me that it was possible back then and then come tell me NOW, like ONE DAY BEFORE, that I have to submit all the claims and invoices by the next day?!?!?! Hey, I have accountants in my committee also you know. What do you mean that we cannot bring over the claims to the next financial term! And you freakin expect us to complete ALL our post event activities in 2 WEEKS!! Right before our exams!!! Hey! We done our job dude. We planned, brain-stormed, stayed overnight, starved, lose sleep, executed and completed the event just like we were supposed to do. Then is my committee and I supposed to work EXTRA, go through all the freakin trouble and displeasure, lose concentration our their quizes and presentations, just because you do not want to do YOUR job of completing the little bit of extra paperwork to get our claims and reimbursements? Urghhhh... I feel like punching someone...

Anyways, no amount of words can reduce the displeasure and anger in me le. It's already evening time, the whole day has passed and I am STILL pissed.. the freebies that comes along with a committee, JERKS AND ASSES, DEFUNCT CASES ,!, !!!

So yups.. End of complaint. I shall revert back to the kind and gentle Dr Jackyl that I am... repercussions of examination stress.. till the next time we crap...



Last Hoped @ 4:45 PM

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I Wan' List
I wanna go KTV !!! (Sheep!!! When u wan go gay again?)
I wanna buy shoes and clothes!!!
I wanna play soccer again !!! Or basketball!!! Or tennis, badminton, anything.. been a while since I had so much time to play sports le !!!
I wanna go settlers !!!
I wanna play pool !!!
I wanna watch movie !!!
I wanna forget everything that I want to do and concentrate on studying!!! UrgHhhhh~!!!


* pulls hair! * ~not that I have alot~

I HATE THE WORD SLIDES!!!

I was so disappointed in you tonight.. Is that the impression I give you? Then maybe we shouldn't even be good friends le.

Am I thinking too much?

Colour Of The Day~ Dark Grey (Disappointed, Desolate and Depressed)


Last Hoped @ 12:09 AM

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Sunday, March 26, 2006

Photofest!!!
I LOVE PHOTOS!!! Enjoy~!!!

Main Committee Outing - Steamboat at marina


After the Meal

Ah Cang Porridge the next morning

Battle of the Claws!!!

Supper/Beakfast outing on the 17th

Tiong Bahru Market in the morning

Crap poses in front of Momo

Cine K-pool

Cheerobics 2006 Finals - The Geatest Achievement So Far


Backdrop, Way Cool~!!!
People I'll never forget

Ma Darlin' (Divorced, 9th March) Ext VC - Cassandra


Internal Vice Chairperson - Jiahao


Guest Counter IC - Joycelyn


Stingray Freak, Programmer (Stage Area)- HuiXia


Programmer - Kelly


Saggio-mate, Logistics Officer - David


Shermain, Me, Jh, David & Cherish


Cheerobics 2006 Committee - The people who made it happen


The crowd!!! Waiting for the results


Ngee Ann Poly - Magnum Force (Runner-Up)


SAF Warriors ( 2nd Runner-up)


NTU ACES (Champions)


Jamie!!!















Saggio setting up the night before the event














The people I will never forget my whole life
Cheerobics 2006 Main Commers... Thank you all so much, for everything~!!!

Pheeww... That's all peeps'.. Darn problem with blogger, can only upload one at a time.. Urgh.. Till next time...


Last Hoped @ 7:19 AM

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Thursday, March 23, 2006

Crapz... can't get to sleep early these days.. I'm back to my nocturnal lifestyle again. Somebody help to change me back le :O(
7:40am and I'm hungry... Went for supper at Bukit Gombak just now.. as in 12 plus.. Ate teochew porridge.. what's with the porridge these days? Third time this week... last week it was stingray... then this week it's porridge.. wths... then we packed prata up to SAO to talk cock and eat.. long time since I went to that place at night.
AND WHAT'S WITH THE FRIGGIN' FRIDGES!!!
Hais... really confused these days. Just when I thought that I had made up my mind about some stuff.. something else comes in.. what is worse is that the new addition, is really quite troublesome.. Feeling lost about some stuff now...Wondering if I should step in or not... sorry about the vague picture here guys.. but yups.. some stuff are better keep hush hush... I have my own skeletons in my closet too ok.. just that I needed to get stuff out of myself... READ THE BLOG TITLE GUYS!! Insignificant ramblings~!!!... stuff that ain't important. Stuff you wanna say, but can't find anyone to tell!!! If it ain't interesting.. then dun read lo..
Anyways, tried uploading pics.. but think there's some problem.. so yups.. you guys just have to wait..
Exam's in 2 weeks time and I've yet to start... and my mc for last week is not submitted yet!!! CrApz... The only time I go to the Academic Block is for LJ80 classes! And tt's 5:30 in the evening... Fuk!
Back to my futile attempts at sleeping early... Gotta curb my cravings for Mac..


Last Hoped @ 7:37 AM

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Saturday, March 18, 2006

Finally, a relatively cheerful post compared to the last few... 9:30am... just got back from a whole night of fun outside... Started with an sms from Cass asking if I wanted to go out.. we ended up going over to Momo to pick up Greg, who was there with a few friends. Then over there, guess what! We bumped into Sher the looo-ser... Actually, it was more of an intentional bump coz she knew I was there..
She was supposed to go into Momo with her sis.. but she ended up tagging along with us.. coz apparantly... we were the more happening group!!!
We went first to Newton to have supper... and you know what, that night was the THIRD Stingray meal I had this week.. Urghhh~!!!
Then we went over to Lucky Plaza, Mambo to play pool.. but it was feakin closed.. and the worse part was... even though we merely parked the car in the dumb carpark for 15 minutes.. the fee was freakin $3.15!?!?!?!?!
NEVER PARK your car there!~!~!~!~!~!~!
Then we went over to cine K-pool instead. Played till 5 plus while gossiping about Cheerobics comm members all the way... so interesting...!!! Hahaha...
After that was breakfast!!! But it was a little too early.. shops weren't open yet.. so we drove over to Geylang for a lil' peek.. hehs... guess the gals learnt and saw alot that night.. hah...
Then we went to Tiong Bahru Market to have breakfast... We had raw fish porridge and "you tiao"... Can't go on like that man... I'll get fat.. omg...
Then, when you expect us to go home.. we went all the way back t0 Momo to get Greg's bike... and we ended up taking crap photos using the mirrors in front of Momo... must have spent another 45 minutes over there... It's wierd how we don't feel tired at all even though it was like 8 plus in the morning!! Guess it was too much crap & fun, everybody too high le... haven't had so much fun since back during my Army days when I would return home early in the morning after breakfast practically everyday.. but it was always gay outings back then...
Better go catch some shut eye... Steamboat tonight.. and I can forsee, more havoc!!! hahaha... Wait for the updates and photos!!! Nitey nite... Zzzzz


Last Hoped @ 9:20 AM

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Thursday, March 16, 2006

Why do people always fail to see what is placed in front of them. Will they only realise their importance when it just disappears one day? Wondered what happened to me. The me 8 months ago would never had bothered to wait so long... I believe the question now is:
Am I still waiting?

Maybe it's that I have too much time now that Cheerobics is over, I spend my time instead thinking alot. Thinking back at why I made certain decisions. What happened during the last 8 months. Stuff that I wondered why I did then... and to realise now that they all count for nothing... I had thought that I could change her, but apparantly I was wrong... nothing has changed since the first day... it was all along just me and my dumb dream...

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you.


Last Hoped @ 6:30 AM

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Disappointing day.. hais.. thought that it was supposed to be a good one. Realised that there were so many things that I wanted to happen today but things just did not materialise. Exams are coming soon, post event report still not done. Japanese lagging so badly, in fact lagging so badly in everything le.. really don't need these stuff to be bothering me now..

Frustrated, perturbed, disillusioned, exhausted... totally not motivated to carry on moving...


Last Hoped @ 1:45 AM

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Saturday, March 11, 2006

Filled with mixed feelings these days. I had thought that I would be happy after the finals. But am I really happy now? Yes, I feel so relieved after walking such a long walk, but yet I also feel like I've lost a big part of my life. Where do I go from here? Do we all go our own seperate ways? The past few days had been so much fun, working into the deathly hours in the morning with my comm, then going for breakfast and stuff.
Then last night was in stark contrast, I was all alone in my room and I suddenly realised something. That there will not be anymore meetings and discussion every week. There will not be anymore calls in the middle of the night asking you for stuff. There will not be anymore stressing sessions together cracking our brains for a solution to a problem. Is my life really going to go back to lessons day after day? It feels so much like the end of a drama serial now. Like when the villian dies in a movie, and everybody goes back to their life before everything happened.. I had enjoyed the finals so much. Hectic yes, but twistedly fun. Now that it's over, it's just another memory added to my brain. Hate these kind of endings... Urghh...
Well, last night I got another blast of disappointment. Didn't expect it to come in the same manner as it did the first time again though. Is that what you really want? Had expected more from you le.. hais... really hope you will keep your promise and at least try le..
Missed the SU date for Japanese. I am so SO dead.
Guess it's really true that once you get older, after you get to see and experience all kinds of stuff, you get sick and tired of life. As I see the recruits in their caps coming for open house today, made me remember my days when I first enlisted into NTU. Filled with hope and anticipation. Hahah.. now.. I just can't wait to finish my studies and go out and work... Cheerobics made me learn that to be able to work well with people is a skill picked up by experience. To be able to handle different people using different attitudes and tones and putting them in the correct place and environment with the correct group so that they work the best. It is just so much more interesting than boring ol' books... heh.. wonder what happened to me? My passion for maths and science all lost... ha.. how to survive in Engine like that *faints*


Last Hoped @ 8:29 PM

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Wednesday, March 08, 2006

The past few days has been such a blur for me.. been in school so long, I've forgotten how my home smells like. I miss my family, miss my room, miss my bed, miss the way my curtains brushes across my face when the wind blows at night, miss my dad's car (the most!!! especially having to drive a lousy van WITHOUT POWER STEERING around for days!!!), miss my bolster, miss my television.. haha.. wierd why I suddenly have this blast of nostalgia le... Time passed so quickly since last thurs... sorry I didnt have time for friends le, Sheep, supper after I get my life back okies!!!... Been driving down to toa payoh so often these few days I can reach that place with my eyes closed lar...
Had to go down to Ubi Civil Defence Headquaters today to apply for Fire Safety License early in the morning coz my Vice chair could not make it.. wah lao, never bring documents, then had to listen to the uncle nag, and nag, and nag, and nag, and nag, and nag, and nag, and nag, and nag, and.. nag... and..... nag.........and.....................nag...... for 20 freaking minutes before he finally told us to call TPY Hub so he can talk to them. Poor person on the line, we caused her to get scolded. SORRY!!! Though you won't be reading this blog, but it's the thought that counts :O)
Anyways, after he was satisfied talking on the phone, he turned his attention, or rather his mouth back to us...then he started....... nagging again!!! Can you believe this guy!!! He's like some machine created to drive the sanity out of pple~!!! Urghhh... I mean, hello!!! We are like 21 already, we know it's our fault we did not bring the documents down, need you keep harping on it like we were some primary sch kid!!! Just approve the stupid form already... Urgh... Damn Jiahao!!! You owe me one for all that damage to my ear!!! And it's your fault in the first place you did not pass me those documents!!! Grrr..
Well, went down to borders after that to meet JAMIE YEO!!! Ahh.. she's so pretty.. she came with Glenn and we sat down outside borders cafe to talk about the emcee script. We ended quite quickly though, so since we hadn't finish our drinks, and she was waiting for Glenn, we decided to gossip a lil' bit.. hahah... Talked about getting old and sch and somehow, we talked about the Hollaback Crew Competition and we managed to make a small deal with 98.7. Hehs.. talk about doing business... we got them to do a little advertisement on Cheerobics on 98.7 in exchange for a little favour.. Whee... We got mentioned on 98.7 air time tonight le, at 9.20pm... a short 30 seconds summary free.. hehs... so cool~!!! Yups, she paid for our drinks that occasion. so nice of her.. and who said she was unfriendly and lofty...
went back to sch to pack our prizes for the categories.. only managed to leave the CAC room at 12 plus. finally get to sleep early tonight. Think I'm going to skip lab tmr, just so I can sleep till afternoon... hais, like I could. Can already foresee me getting woken up by my phone. urgh!!!! Maybe I should just switch it off. ha.. TPY Hub tmr night, to set-up.. 2 more days to finals!! So exciting, hope things will not start cocking up anymore, like today.. GOH, ambulance coverage, FSC license, DI Boxes... lucky everything was solved... hope the GOH and VIPs are able to find their way there and to the reception counter le. I'm only worried about that. The rest should be ok... my the event go smoothly... and I hope someone will go :O)
Going to sleep early lo!!! See ya pple there on thursday!!!


Last Hoped @ 3:03 AM

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Monday, March 06, 2006


Heats is over...!!!
Finally, can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Just that there is still alot of crap still blocking it for now... Urgh~!!! So tired... Been sleeping for less than 3 hours each night since thursday. So many plans and executions to be done... I keep sleeping at 5am at waking up at 7-8am le...
Don't even know how I managed to survive all that man.. dark rings all appearing... Another week of lessons skipping up till Thursday lo... Hais... Resolve to start MUGGING once my event ends!!! But yar.. think quite impossible still... realised still got alot of post event stuff to do... still got the stupid recruitment committee...
hais...


4th March 2006, Cheerobics Heats!!!

Been planning for the heats with my cp and vc till 3am the last night. Slept at 5am. Woke up 730am and had to go down to SRC at 9am le... Setting up was smooth flowing, but I was stunned by the large turnout considering we only announced it to be an open event just one week before the actual date. Well, everything went smoothly after all. But there were still alot of issues to be settled.. Regret why I made certain decision back then. So jealous of Ken, he has so many people to choose from for his committee. Well, I'm glad I had the 1 to 1 talks to some of my committee members le, they are showing some signs of improvement.
Heats program went super smoothly le.. when it finally ended, i thought i could at last go back and have a long awaited rest, but end up still got so many issues to settle lar.. urghhh...
After driving to JP in a van and having dinner with a few of my committee members, me and my chief programmer went down to Toa Payoh Hub again.. then later at night, me and my 2 vice chairs went over my CP's room to discuss plans until 5 plus again lar.. urgh... before we finally went back to our room to sleep.


Some photos taken during heats


Main Comm


Saggio


Main Comm again!!!

5th March 2006, Sunday

It's Sunday and I am still in school!!! Can you believe that.. grr~
Anyways, finally had the luxury of having 6 hours of sleep. Slept from 7 to 1 plus.. And shortly after I wake up, the 4 of us had to drive down to TPY Hub again to do site recee, take photos and walk through. Sianz... only got to come back to hall at 730. We rested a lil' before setting of to my CP's room again to complete our Program Timeline, Emcee Script, Manpower allocation, E-mail to Schools, GOH/VIP Ushering Plan, Walkie Talkie Plan, Sub Commer's briefing slides, Finals Setting up plan, Newpaper Advertisement, Backdrop Design, and many many more crap... So fun.. didn't know that working together with people you trust so much throughout the night and accomplishing so much could feel so good.
6 am lo.. more or less done with everything... guess we go enjoy our breakfast first before finishing up le...
We can do it!!!! 3 More Days!!!!

Before I go, another advertisement... hehs... but with a different tone le..

CHEEROBICS 2006 FINALS

5th March, 5:30pm Toa Payoh HDB Hub

See you guys there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Last Hoped @ 5:58 AM

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Thursday, March 02, 2006

Counting down.. 8 more days!!! Quizes and tests finally over. Now I can focus on my event. Please let everything go smoothly...
I am finally going to sleep till past 12 noon tomorrow. Please let me not get awakened by phonecalls again~!!! Urghh...

~The end is near, I hope~


Last Hoped @ 4:47 AM

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