okay.. i realised today that people still DO read the crap that i'm typing.. haha.. sooo, to those 'loyal' fans, even if the reason you read this is because you wanna find some sampat news to talk about and STILL refuses to tag (you know who you are.. haha), here's a post for you... all...
anyways.. just wanna blog about misunderstandings.. seemed like the hot topic today.. i have been both guilty of causing them and falling prey to them recently, i mean who hasnt.. but yar.. in my case, it's really bad.. and i really dont want people to fall prey to them anymore.. coz it really can hurt a friendship..
i feel that misunderstandings are often the result of insufficient communications.. when something unhappy happens.. it is always human nature to talk, complain, grumble about it. and most of the time, the story one hears is often one sided.. when that happens, it all boils down to guessing and predicting, which also depends alot upon emotions.. and often, these views aren't accurate.. so, all these will only make the misunderstandings worsen..
i always believe that nothing cannot be cleared as long as both parties are willing to sit down, and trash things out.. i emphasize the words BOTH and WILLING.. there really isnt any point if its one person talking, and the other just listening.. because you need to bring out every single thing you're unhappy with. Only then, can you let the other person understand what you were thinking. and of course like they always say, it takes two to clap.. and if you really want to clear up a misunderstanding, NEVER, never let it drag for too long a time.. because you will get nagged and nagged at by the other party when you DO clear things up =b ok, seriously.. dragging things will only make both parties suffer.. that's assuming both parties are disturbed by the problem.. and there would only be more guessing and waiting.. and more pain.. and it's always when both parties finally agree to talk things out.. that you realise.. it had always been for a stupid cause after all.. and that's when the bond between the both of you strengthens.. because by talking, you actually learn alot about the other party, and more imporrtantly, about yourself..
well.. i'm just glad that i finally cleared up certain matters.. and i also made certain decisions which i hope is correct.. it'll probably be better for both sides.. enough of not being myself..
Oh, and some misunderstandings that i wanna clear about myself.. 1) I DO NOT!!!! I repeat.. I DO NOT!!!! treat friends like dirt! kaoz. thanks lah.. that sort of hurt... 2) I DO NOT ONLY have one particular group of friends.. that's just dumb -.-" 3) I DO NOT get angry just because i dont get to play mahjong.. and it's not the first time i'm saying this..
so yar.. stop fabricating these wierd impression of me already pls.. hais.. i just want things to go back to old times.. when there werent any fake smiles and pointless worrying...
now i only have one other problem, not counting my studies of course.. well.. i just dont want to care abt that anymore i suppose.. even though like almost EVERYONE says i cant.. duhz.. thanks for the support lah.. just really tired of being the one who keeps going back everytime.. being the only one who cares.. not going to clear things up unless the other person is willing to.. because remember, there really isnt any point if its one person talking, and the other just listening.. aiyahhh... just another case of one sided communication.. so yups.. whatever.. stop asking me about it le.. coz i really dont wanna talk abt it okay...
Last Hoped @ 3:03 AM
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Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Crapz man.. thought i would finally sleep a little earlier last night.. so i slept at 5am (Yes that's early for me believe it or not).. was wanting to wake up at 12:30 pm but all i could remember was waking up at 12:30, setting my hp to snooze mode thinking i could pig a little longer.. and the next thing i knew i was sitting up in bed at 4 pm.. sheeshh.. that's like 11 hours, omg!!
Anyways.. i had wanted to settle some matters which i had intended to settle for a long time, just that i kept holding it back because i couldnt find the right time... when i finally had the chance, it got postponed again -.-"
okayy.. then i did not want to stay at home at night.. coz i'd probably end up thinking about things that will make me unhappy again so.. to take my mind off stuff, i zoomed off to vivo to watch follow the law.. it's a damn nice, hilarious, absolutely fabulous show i tell you.. something that i could relate to perfectly.. and fann wong.. haha.. for once she actually IS acting.. TOTALLY fantastic..
then we went to east coast coz i still did not want to go home.. and we ended up talking at bedok jetty.. and just enjoying the sea breeze.. and even at that place, it brought back unhappy memories.. well.. what can i say, but that at least there wont be anymore of those now?
hmm.. just let me survive tonight without any stunts..
Last Hoped @ 7:49 AM
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Monday, February 26, 2007
The recess week is here. Seems just like yesterday, when we had zoomed to genting for a short getaway and had so much fun, but in actual fact, it had already been half a year. time goes by fast huh.. they might call this week a break, but it is no time to play.. 5 quizes and 1 lab report coming right up in the 2 weeks to come. this 'break' is for me to catch up with my lessons.. so it's recordings, recordings, and more recordings for me... my aunt's finally going back to L.A. So i wont have to bring her around sg anymore... I wanna go ice skating again soon!!!
anyways.. was in a horrible mood a moment ago. have you ever had one of these days, when you wished you hadnt lived the last few years of your life. that you could just forget about everything. then maybe, just maybe it wouldnt hurt as much as it does now?
it's like whatever shit i overcome now, i get 10 times the shit the next time.. it just doesnt get any better.. and the thing is, that person doesnt even care... and it's when things like this happen, that makes you start wondering why you're getting yourself all hurt and stinky just to overcome all those crap for...
time and time again you get disappointed, turned down, put off... time and time again you come back with hope that she might somehow see and understand.. and hopefully things might change.. but time and time again, she fails you.. until there comes a time, when you finally realise.. that no matter what you do, you havent been in her mind even once.. and the anger builds up.. the rage.. the disappointment.. the frustration.. the need to release all that pent-up emotions.. because you dont want to hurt anyone.. you decide to just disappear.. to where nobody knows about your past.. because that's the only way to forget.. sadly but surely... and maybe one day.. you might remember her face.. but the sadness would have faded.. and what is left, would only be the lunch dates on wednesdays.. and the mahjong sessions.. and the overseas holiday.. and the bus rides to jp.. and the late night walks.. and the fries while driving.. and the fruits buying... and the study sessions.. and the rides home.. and the emails from europe.. and the phonecalls.. and all the happy memories that both of you had... would it be better that way??? to dwell on past memories.. since there wont be anymore new ones...
do people only start appreciating things when they really lose it? jy, maybe i should just take up your advice. haha.. she's definately way more worth it.. since it's always better to be appreciated...
Last Hoped @ 3:40 AM
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Finally found a better photo sharing program than the stupid flickr. But it took me like forever to get these stupid photos up.. was meddling with it for 4 hours yesterday night. In the end i had too many photos to upload, and apparantly this program can only upload a maximum of 30 photos in one strip. So I had to use 2 strips instead.. a little too much information i know, but just bear with it till i find a better solution... think i'll probably change blogskin too very soon.. once i find the time and the motivation.. haha..
Anyways, CNY had been nothing but hectic so far.. the past two days i've been doing nothing but travelling and smiling.. leaving my home in the early morning, and coming back only at night.. all these for nothing but a few red packets.. urgh.. wonder if it's even worth all the trouble.. why can't i just rot at home and all the red packets will come automatically to me huh? urgh... and both mornings didnt start well.. lots of last minute problems sort of came up and tempers started rising.. well, i am just glad that things sort of got into place as the day passes..
I am supposed to be bringing my migrated aunt from Los Angeles around town with my dad today.. but i'll probably be sitting that one out.. i am just too tired to do anything else. Just wanna nwah all day at home.. since i havent slept at all since last night.. been out with a few friends and i just got home.. soOoOoOo.. the plan is to stay as awake as possible until night falls.. and then i'll just go back to hall early and sleep till tomorrow morning.. so that my bio clock can be normal again... hmm... sounds like a good plan!!! haha.. i'll probably fall asleep once i finish blogging..
oh.. i wanna blog about this incident i saw when i was outside.. it was about 12 midnight at penninsula plaza.. my friends and I saw this drunk caucasian lady quarreling with her boyfriend. it must be quite serious since the guy took off and just left her there drunk and groggy after that.. then this 2 malay guys walked up to her and started talking to her.. i dont know what they said, but apparantly the lady didnt take it too well coz she started turning violent.. by then, she was making such a din that there was already a small crowd forming outside the 7-11.. i think she got one of the guys on his leg.. she can pack quite a kick.. she was so busy displaying her kung fu that she failed to notice the building security guard taking out his phone and pressing the numbers 999... 2 patrol cars soon came.. and 4 blues came out.. 3 guys and a lady..
I think the caucasian lady was doing her twin dragon crane spin kick move or something of that sorts on one of the malay guys when the 4 blues started approaching her.. it was super intimidating lah.. then they cornered her at the wall first.. and they attempted to calm her down.. but i think it didnt turn out good.. soon she was shouting stuff like.. "I just came from Hong Kong.... fu*kers.. dont mess with me... that a**hole.." etc ok. dont think i wanna describe everything in details.. too drama rama.. just know tt one of the police dudes didnt take her shouting too well.. and she soon found herself pinned on the floor with her hands cuffed behind her back.. then since her hands were restrained.. she decided to do her trademark kicking moves again.. which only brought her more pain.. the whole thing was about a full 15 minutes or so.. before she was dragged to the car and taken off.. this is the first time i have seen a life arrest.. so drama.. i'm sorry to say but it was quite entertaining =b
then on the way home.. we saw 2 seperate cases of road accidents at 2 seperate locations.. my friend was wondering what day was this.. why so much action.. guess the night really does bring about lots of troubles...
well.. hope i've typed enough to make up for the long disappearance.. and i think my tagboard going to expire soon again.. lol... off to find something else more interesting to do!!! DONT FALL ASLEEP JUSTUS!!!!!
Last Hoped @ 9:21 AM
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Saturday, February 10, 2007
Hmm.. finally have the urge to blog after so loOong... didnt even bother when my tagboard expired =b anyways, i got a new one now.. so it's the responsibility of YOU pple who still haven't given up on my blog (i hope) to keep this one alive and fresh!! hah...
Anyways, spent the last 2 hours alternating between watching boring lecture recording and this Japanese Drama on baseball, H2.. Have this dumb quiz on monday.. sheesh...
Daily Visitor She visits my room everyday now.. Who? Emily Meow.. the hall cat.. It was monday evening when she first laid eyes on my fridge and it was love at first sight.. From then on, i'll find her at my doorsteps every evening... she particularly adores Miss Daisy Low Fat and Mr Honey Baked...
Saw her downstairs this evening.. Called out to her.. And she looked up at me.. From the base of the slope in front of my hall.. She saw me beckoning.. And 'galloped' at full speed.. Up the slope, up the stairs.. to me... Just adorable..
Late Night SMS I received an sms wishing me good night... From an old friend... how sweet... an old friend i spent more than 2 years of my life with.. The Singapore Arms Forces... Bleahhh... how revolting! i am to spend another 1 week in June with her.. totally so NOT looking forward to my holidays now...
Yearly Bonus is coming soon.. Yeahhh.. but it sucks not to have new clothes to celebrate this special occasion with... dumb usual shopping partner's too preoccupied with quizes.. duhz... and too lazy to ask the other shopping partners.. shall stick with newer old clothes bahz..
Aunt who migrate to California long time ago's here to stay for the festive season... my old man's supposed to bring her sis around singapore to see how much's changed since 'their time'... so yar.. gotta stick with them for the time being..
O level results are out.. Some make it.. Some dont.. but just remember all is not lost.. it just means you got to work harder.. And in case you haven't already known.... Once a Saint.. Always a Saint... =)
Lagging in lessons again.. urghh.. gotta start getting my lazy ass out of my bed for morning lessons! havent seen the morning sun for a while now.. and to those who're stressed out about sch work.. always remember.. there's always someone far worse off than you.. ME!!!
