Void of feeling and emotions
the numbness he feels
this vacumn, this emptiness
so quiet it kills
apathetic and indifferent
the way he passes each day
totally uninterested in
the things that comes his way
the stuff that used to lift his spirits
that used to give him life
all matters not to him at all now
he just brushes them aside
like a lioness who loses her prey too often
or a spider whose web gets broken
he's just so tired of trying so hard
only to again get forsaken
he doesn't feel anything like what he used to...
that drive, that hope...
lost them he had...
as he walked the bumpy, painful road called 'Life'...
no more dreams he had of the future...
for they are only dreams...
for what future would there be...
if not for the present...
and by doing that there will no more be...
any lost hopes or faded dreams...
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Was looking into my archives...
At the many many (now that I think about it..) rather embarassing things I used to conjure up...
Just to see that smile...
If life were a Mastercard Advert...
That would be the final item on the list..
That priceless smile...
And the list of items before it..
Would be everything else I did...
and I realised...
that I probably could never ever bring myself to go through all that ever again
-.-
So here they are one more time...
An Eulogy of my once effervescent and colourful life
That's about to turn REALLY monotonous
I know somebody's gonna flip once she sees these.. hoho..
Or rather.. somebod-IES
hoho...
21 candles.. for 21 fat, fruitful years of your life...
And 21 minutes of pure embarrasment >.<
No. 1 Bestseller
(Even the auntie wipping the table asked me where I bought it.. hoho)
Muffin Head Inc.
And then.. my second attempt at another bestseller (Not completed)
DISCLAIMER!!!
The following entry is not in anyway meant to hint or suggest anything to anyone. It was just written THEN, to help relieve the stress built up in certain events that happened previously, and blogged about NOW only for reminiscent and entertainment purposes.
Dr Gan’s 101 Ways To Break Up With Your
Self-Centered/Insensitive/Obnoxious Boyfriend
First and foremost, before you go plunging yourself into the pages of this extensive and comprehensive guide, the best ever so far by Dr Gan, there is ONE very important question to take note.
“DO YOU REALLY WANT TO BREAK UP WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND???”
If your answer to that question is some vague, undecided;
- Maybe?
- I think so?
- I want to but….
then STOP!!! Because you are not ready to read this..
Yet…
But if your answer to that question is;
- HELL YES!!!
- Is that a trick question??
- Can you please stop wasting my time already?!?!
then please feel free to turn the pages…
before someone gets hurt..
BREAK-UPS IN A NUTSHELL
There are many different kinds of break-ups. Ranging from the “!@#$%^&*... Don’t ever come looking for me ever again!!!” category, to the “We can still be friends?” *smiles* category.
But no matter what type of break-up it is, there would definitely be pain (applicable to both parties), be it from recalling painful memories, or a direct upper-cut into the chin. And unless you come to terms with that, it would never truly be a clean break-up. It’s important to realize that it’s better to deal with the short term pain rather then continue bearing the perennial hurt time and time again. It’s like a never ending burden you have to carry around all the time. And it almost always never gets lighter.
This also means that in break-ups, it is near impossible to be worrying about the other half all the time. Since there would definitely be pain inflicted, it is only a matter or making his/her pain last longer, or to end it short, ‘sweet’ and fast. Do you really want to wait until one fine day when he goes out with you on a date, smile and laugh and enjoy himself, and then break the news to him that you don’t want him to be a special part of your life anymore? Isn’t that much more cruel? What better time to do it than after a quarrel?
So let down your hair and do what you have to do. Be a man/woman and take the pain head on. Deal the blows and inflict the damage you have to, then after that find yourself suddenly freed from the bonds that once kept you and the other half so downtrodden and withdrawn.
THE KARMASUTRA OF BREAK-UPS
Although the title of the book suggests that there will be 101 ways of breaking up stated in this book, it’s merely a gimmick for marketing purposes. In reality, the methods are really quite flexible. All that this book can provide you with, are ideas to put on the table. How you put the plan into action really depends on your character, personality, and determination. And not forgetting of course, how bent you are on ending this problematic relationship.
Stated below, are the ideas that you could probably take into consideration when you are going to break up
1) Ask him out to meet you and tell him straight in the face. Turn around and walk away after that, not looking back even once.
a. Regretting and listening to what the other party says most often leads to patching up. Statistics have proved that this is especially true if you are a type 9 in the Enneagram System and the other party is a type 3/8.
To take the test and find out which type you are, you can go to this link: (http://healing.about.com/gi/dynamic/offsite.htm?zi=1/XJ/Ya&sdn=healing&cdn=religion&tm=3&gps=107_7_1020_599&f=00&tt=-2&bt=1&bts=1&zu=http%3A//www.eclecticenergies.com/enneagram/test.php)
2) Throw a stone through his window with a note that says “Our relationship is now officially like your window…… broken” tied to it…
a. Ending with a “Bang”, or in this case “Crash”, has always been one of the more popular choices among people. Just make sure you sign your name on the note and don’t go throwing it into the wrong window.
Never really got the chance to finish the book =b
