Always hated to have to scold and reprimand. But I guess I was running out of choices at that moment.. Was really quite frustrated just now.. especially when I have always believe that one day, things will get done.

Trust
Something really fragile, really susceptible to the cold, harsh reality of life.
Something once lost, can never be the same again..

I threw some of it away yesterday
The hesitation when I replied. The intention of hiding. I was guilty. I guess that the situation and the conditions at that moment in time played a part in my mistake. But it was no excuse. I just wished that this isn't going to be the start of a crack in what was, a good and strong friendship. Because this would really, really be an unbelievably, impossibly DUMBASS reason.
Because there wasn't anything in it at all, to begin with.

I lost some of it today. Just a few hours ago.
The trust that there was a certain level of responsibility, for someone who used to be in a leadership position. I always knew there were double standards. I DO understand, it's not that I don't. The differences in commitment levels. The differences in personal beliefs. In priorities in life. I just didnt expect the difference to be THIS great. Guess I might have been defending the wrong person all these while then. I truely hope not.

Too many things to worry about. Too many emotions going through myself.
No, not being emo, just being human.

Sadness, anger, hatred, spite.. immaturity..
They are all a part of you..
Do not reject them..
Instead, embrace them.. accept them..
And use them to fuel your journey to your goal..

Life have sad moments, just as it has happy ones..
As long as there is happiness, there will also be grief..
Where there is good fortune, there is also misfortune..
It can't be avoided..
So accept your life, and make the best of it..
So you won't look back in guilt and regret..