It's been a while since I've had anything emotional to post about..
so i thought i'd give y'all emo-post suckers out there a certain treat today...
so.. Bon Appétit..

Ever had that feeling like you know someone inside out at times..
and yet that same person can become a total different person in the blink of an eye..

Day by day you resist and you hold back your feelings,
because you know showing too much would only cause more problems for both of you..
you try not to talk to her online..
and when you finally do, she often makes you feel like discontinuing the conversation..
when you give a dumb excuse to stop the conversation..
the two of you dont even say bye to each other..
like strangers often do..

you can live without her..
but when you're sick..
and you're having problems..
when you want someone to talk to..
then you realise that the one who is making you smile isn't her anymore..

Maybe it would have been better,
if you had the ability to read thoughts..
then you wouldnt have to guess each time if she wants to chat..
You wouldnt have to guess if it were your MSN having problems sending messages over..
or if she simply doesnt want to reply..
You wouldnt have to guess if she really cared..
You wouldnt have to guess if she really gets what you want to tell her..
everytime you write something like this..
You wouldnt have to guess why you just cant stop thinking about her..

why cant love just be simple and straightforward..
the more i keep convincing myself that she's not the one..
the more i want her here with me..
suppressing these feelings seriously sucks..
especially when everything reminds you of the past..
it hurts when you cannot care for the one you love most..

Just another emo day...